Father's Day

Something unique about marriage is the ability to witness so closely the relationships of another person. It's like you get to sit by someone else's most intimate fires. You get to watch their flames dance, wax and wane. You get to bask in the warmth as it fuels and inspires your own fire.  Although these relationships are all separate, they all feed into this enormous warmth that is your family.  Unique and individual and hard and beautiful.  My Motherhood feeds into his Fatherhood, their Childhood feeds into our Adulthood, and on and on.  This year especially I've had many moments of basking in the warmth that Damon brings to our family. 

The more I appreciate your Fatherhood, the more I realize how essential it is to everything that happens in our home. And it's not perfect. It's not suppose to be.  Which is a relief, because I don't have to be the only one floundering and struggling. We get to cling to each other in those moments in empathy and in vulnerability. I'm grateful for it. Sometimes we hurt each other, sometimes we are selfish, sometimes we are tired, and sometimes we really really just get to bask in the beauty of so many moments coming together and washing us in the most delicate and precious warmth.  It's like I was telling Indie today. Anytime you truly love you are opening yourself up to hurt.  But it's worth it.  You are worth it. 

Thank you for showing up with the warmth only you could bring to our family.  Thank you for showing up imperfect and beautiful.  It's more than I could ever have hoped for, and I want to pull out a million more moments that make us want to scream and cry and laugh and feel.  Fatherhood is so much more than just providing, and I hope you see the power that your relationships bring to our home.